Another day.... my feeling are all curly. Ive been out of work for 11 days, trying to take it easy. To find out today looks as though I maybe laid off this Saturday... out of work on disablity to come back to NO job! phooey. Things with the bf have been kinda rocky but getting better..... My surgical outcome seems .... ok. Ive been sending out resumes for the last couple hours. cage crazed.... I ate pork yesterday, and chicken today..... omnivorous monster.... not what I wanna be. The sun is supposed to be blaring hot shit for the next few days... yippee.. and not yippee... No $$$ for gas to get to the beach. PLanted all my bulbs yesterday... a wee bit late but hopefully something will bloom. Beetle puzzle is coming along, Clairey sure knows me well! I miss all my friends at work. Hopefully I can find a new job and be treated with some respect. thats all for now. Here's to perky tits! xox

the process of healing.

So... the big day came and went. It's been about 24 hours since my BIG event. My body is very sore. Im feeling nauseas quite often resulting in me not wanting to eat much.... but in order to take tylenol I must consume, working on goldfish now, I tried to hold out on the tylenol but to bad results in pain. So thats where I am day 1. Missing my boyfriend, having my bestie here with me, and another on his way this evening. Im lugging around tubes and drains, not the prettiest site, but do-able. My hair is greasy and I cant shower for about 2 weeks.... dumb!

piss.

15 days till the big day! Except.... tomorrow... I have to have my teeth fixed, fuck. Today now, they're feeling loose.. so the $2400 procedure may not be sufficient, especially if they have to be pulled. mutherfuck! i'm pissed, i am. SO in 15 days, not only my body, but my mouth is going to be very different.. and not quite "mine" anymore. Trying to stay as positive as possible.... its tough. Life on life's terms.... clearly not on Erin's terms... I feel like i've come so far in the past few years, and now in the past few days I feel i've back pedaled a shit load. it's gnarly. My tattooist is outtie and finished with this piece of me... but im bummed she's going. Animals are all healthy for the most part, Spank had a hard time eating for a few days... maybe a mental thing for him... idk. he's all better. My Mum is good, shes gonna be away on her honeymoon while im in sx, im kinda bummed about that. But ive got 2 good buddies here to be with me. Im dealing with some crazy pain in my mouth now, so that shouldnt be too bad.... painmedless.

swoosh

there once was a girl,
her hair had no curls..
she never wore pearls,
but was a vegetarian!
-That's for you babe.... I know how you dig my rhyming technique ;)

The days are getting better, my icky-ness feeling is going away, ran today like a champ.
Claire-y got a kitten, stopped wearing mittens, cuz the sun was hotter than shit today!
I am worlds greatest "mah-jong, dong dong dong" player.
I need some lovin! meh... soon ... xox

sick.

I'm in a fairly good place now in life. I'm sick and that sucks ass, but all things;humans/animals around me are pretty groovy.
I've finally come to that place, where I'm not fearing anyone I'm around. Life is good. Job situations are scary, my surgery is coming up.. that's pretty scary. But over-all I'm ok.
Started softball this past weekend, I'm the worst on the team,that I've met so far... only met 6 out of 15, so I have a teeny weeny chance..
Family is family. But my homemade fam. is grand.
Im the heaviest I've ever been.. totally fucked. But working through this; if I want, it too, will pass.
I have a 10k race this weekend, not prepared at all... and being sick I'm not even working out, meh!
Animals are good!! Weather has been aight, but the past few days have been pretty rainy. Spring will be here soon!!!
I have a honey! He's super great, adorable, all those things... but kinda far away. Looking forward to seeing his sweet ass soon! For a lil' TLC!!!!
x's and o's